No. 47: The Mess and The Manna

plus the May, June & July favorites. (y'all, I'm back!)

This blinking cursor stared at me for a little bit too long today. It’s been months since I sat in front of my actual laptop screen. Not a post it scribbled in the dark, not lightning speed taps in my notes app—a real life laptop. Something about the informality of putting “pen to paper” everywhere else but my actual computer made it easier. As long as I could keep it informal, tricking my brain into using phrases like “I just need to jot this down before I forget” or “I’m starting something to come back and finish later,” I couldn’t stop the words from coming if I tried. But here, now that it’s time to come back with something weighty and profound, something worth the time apart, my brain is making me work for it.

I wasn’t sure what angle to come from first. Should I share an update on the past couple months? A real and raw look into life with four babies? All the things that don’t really matter but I’ve been desperate to share nonetheless? Should we jump right into Momiform things or cover the topic of Fall Meals? Should I go deep and share my experience with postpartum anxiety or keep it light and tell you a story about the one time we rented a stick shift in St. Tropez without knowing how to drive it?

The more I reminded myself the blinking cursor wasn’t a ticking clock, I realized I could relax my shoulders. The right thing to share for today would come. I’ll share about the anxiety and give a postpartum update in next weeks podcast. I’ll do a full deep dive into Fall meal and menu planning and you already know I’ve got the Momiform covered. For today, I want to tell you about manna.